c0mments! Walao,finally recovered from that stupid illness-.-''
back to normal and healthy=)
but..still need to take care of that class competition-,-
still need to training,planning..
it was okay,but some people use *****'s birthday and choose the most 'PERFECT' class for our first three matches,i cant thank them enough=.=
that means i was pressured enough
i told myself,is just a game anyway..no harm done=)
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I been thinking ..
Am i really wasting my time...
by spending all my time on it...
and he/she did tell me that he/she dont deserve=(
i was like going to crack into pieces,am i being too nerd?
i always thought people likes to be cared=(
but i was wrong..
being too good to people wont get good luck..
is just wasting your time on it..
i still dont get it,if i become bad,no one will like me anymore=(
if i become good,they will try to bully me=(
for normal people,if someone bully you,you sure will bully back him..
but i just cant do it..instead of that i will try to calm myself,and let him bully=(
i hate myself..
but this is who am i.,..
and i just gonna make my life more interesting..
but..i just dont know how............
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i like to care people,you can say me 38 d..
is okay for me..
but i still dont understand why people will try to push me away..
pushing me away it is like kicking me out of everything..
is this what human live for purpose?
then i got to say thanks to the upcoming 2010..
It is hard for me to think possitive,because everything negative from,just wont stop sending to me=)
i want to be normal,that's what i only want,i dont think i earn any trust form you guys=(((((
not even one...
i know you guys are just pretending in front of me,saying that caring me=(,then i will pretend to understand to undestand too also..for my own happiness...
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when i say sorry,you guys will say why...
i am angry when i heard that...
because i knwo i am wrong,and you are pushing away by keeping in your ming for revenge...
i am already a worker for you guys, and i dont need money for that=(
you still want to hurt me until when...
i leave,you guys keep advising me,what's the problem,i thought you guys want the most is to kick me out of your life..
and if i got problem,who knows because i wont tell..=P
why i wont tell,because even if i tell,i will be talking to a wall=)
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i did say i got many memories right?
i think not even one of them is a happy one for me=)
i really wish that i already dead at that accident
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